[ beau's speaking his language, because he shoves right back after stumbling. ]

What good is it doing?! I fucking can't do anything else! If I crack, what the fuck happens?! [ i'm strong. i'm strong. that's been his motto his entire life. he's told himself it at the worst moments of his life, and it's gotten him through.

...hasn't it?

didn't he fall into this once?

he shoves her again, voice rising in volume. ] Hope's depending on me, our entire dorm is depending on me, Iris is depending on me, even you're depending on me, and I just keep fucking failing!