... yeah, but, I should've known that it was nothing to be that freaked about, I could've just given you some space, but I couldn't back off, so I'm - [ ... am sorry he starts to say, again, and then stops himself. no more apologies.

he shakes his head, running his fingers through his bangs, and exhales, loudly, shoulders dropping, then, mutters: ]

...this is stupid.

[ because it is stupid. all of it is stupid. he's not good at this, either. but maybe it's the first sign of a normal ichiro, too, because at least he can admit that it's really fucking stupid and he's really fucking tired of it. ]

Iris figured out I've got a thing for her.