he's coming, yeah. there's a moment where he disappears into the boys suite, first, but comes back out holding a water bottle in his hands, then immediately comes and sits down wherever there's space. it's touchy week, so he scoots over close. ]
Fuck this. [ is what he decides, because. yeah. what else do you say. ]
[ this is completely fine. he will take her hand - he's got the first aid kit, and he props it up against his thigh to start working on it. ichiro's all warm hands and careful touches - as gentle as beau was with him, last week. ]
...Yeah. Fuck all of it. Fuck this place, and its shitty rules, and the shitty things it does to people, and its shitty stupid principal that's a stupid bear.
[ muttering this does actually make him feel like. an iota better? sometimes you just have to be tired mad. he's already shouted and screamed himself out, today; there's not really any heat to it, but by god do they all deserve a chance to complain. ]
An otter? What the fuck? [ he hadn't even heard of that!!! he also can't help but laugh, a stupid, also a little bit hysterical noise. ]
I'm never gonna - I'm never gonna be able to go to the zoo again, or I'm gonna lose my shit. [ because what else can you do, but hiccup laugh in this shitty moment. ]
she's patiently letting him work on her hand, but once he's done she's gonna just yank him down so she can cuddle him. he's good at hugs, and she wants one.]
[ yeah, it's a good day for cuddles, huh. touchy week, and ichiro's plenty tactile - sometimes you just gotta hug your emotional support lesbian. he scoots down to let this happen and pulls her in. ichiro gives fantastic platonic cuddles, because he's big and has muscles and smells good and not too much like stinky boy.
once they're both kinda settled, he just huffs out a big sigh, like a dog. this is fine. ]
he shifts a little so he can look at her. tired, too. a little wrung out. ]
...think the bar's kinda low. [ ... ] ...better's good. I think... I think better's good. [ he's gotta settle with that, for a second. it sucks. it sucks ass, but it's probably better it wasn't - at least it wasn't someone innocent. the dead might not be gone forever. it's something. maybe its a start. ]
....You know...for a purple guy who claims he's two years old, Molly says a lot of wise stuff.
[the bar is SO low. she meets his gaze for a moment, and then looks away. she's been really good about not crying tonight, so she's not going to start now.]
He does, actually. Says just as much stupid as fuck shit to balance it out. [...] He changed my whole outlook on things, you know? When I met him.
[ he's glad to just listen, for a little bit. settling in, folding his arm under his head, he closes his eyes. ] I figured you guys were close... you've got matching tats. How'd he do that?
I was a shitty person, before I met the Nein. I'd break things because I could. But Molly - he's an asshole, but he doesn't do that. He doesn't look for ways to tear people down. He makes things better for people, even if it's just a little.
I saw that, and I wanted to do it, too. Instead of being a garbage person, I wanted to try harder, so. I got the tattoo to remind me to keep moving.
it's probably a good thing he looked away. he nods, even if beau can't see it, and tries to talk around the sticky weight of a memory on his chest. of an angry kid in an orphanage.] ...I get that.
[ after a longer pause, ichiro's voice softens. ] ...I think it's working. I mean - I didn't know you before, I guess, but you're not a garbage person. Not even close.
...Sometimes that's all we can really do, is try to be better than our worst. I know it's hard as shit sometimes. So. I think it's something to look up to.
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he's coming, yeah. there's a moment where he disappears into the boys suite, first, but comes back out holding a water bottle in his hands, then immediately comes and sits down wherever there's space. it's touchy week, so he scoots over close. ]
Fuck this. [ is what he decides, because. yeah. what else do you say. ]
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Yeah, fuck this. [she says, sounding tired.]
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...Yeah. Fuck all of it. Fuck this place, and its shitty rules, and the shitty things it does to people, and its shitty stupid principal that's a stupid bear.
[ muttering this does actually make him feel like. an iota better? sometimes you just have to be tired mad. he's already shouted and screamed himself out, today; there's not really any heat to it, but by god do they all deserve a chance to complain. ]
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And it's stupid shitty vice principal that's an otter. [hiccup.]
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I'm never gonna - I'm never gonna be able to go to the zoo again, or I'm gonna lose my shit. [ because what else can you do, but hiccup laugh in this shitty moment. ]
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she's patiently letting him work on her hand, but once he's done she's gonna just yank him down so she can cuddle him. he's good at hugs, and she wants one.]
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once they're both kinda settled, he just huffs out a big sigh, like a dog. this is fine. ]
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she's quiet, and then:]
... Molly said, uh. Molly said maybe for now leaving it better just has to be not leaving it worse. And I think I agree with him.
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he shifts a little so he can look at her. tired, too. a little wrung out. ]
...think the bar's kinda low. [ ... ] ...better's good. I think... I think better's good. [ he's gotta settle with that, for a second. it sucks. it sucks ass, but it's probably better it wasn't - at least it wasn't someone innocent. the dead might not be gone forever. it's something. maybe its a start. ]
....You know...for a purple guy who claims he's two years old, Molly says a lot of wise stuff.
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He does, actually. Says just as much stupid as fuck shit to balance it out. [...] He changed my whole outlook on things, you know? When I met him.
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[ he's glad to just listen, for a little bit. settling in, folding his arm under his head, he closes his eyes. ] I figured you guys were close... you've got matching tats. How'd he do that?
[ change her outlook, anyway. ]
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I was a shitty person, before I met the Nein. I'd break things because I could. But Molly - he's an asshole, but he doesn't do that. He doesn't look for ways to tear people down. He makes things better for people, even if it's just a little.
I saw that, and I wanted to do it, too. Instead of being a garbage person, I wanted to try harder, so. I got the tattoo to remind me to keep moving.
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it's probably a good thing he looked away. he nods, even if beau can't see it, and tries to talk around the sticky weight of a memory on his chest. of an angry kid in an orphanage.] ...I get that.
[ after a longer pause, ichiro's voice softens. ] ...I think it's working. I mean - I didn't know you before, I guess, but you're not a garbage person. Not even close.
...Sometimes that's all we can really do, is try to be better than our worst. I know it's hard as shit sometimes. So. I think it's something to look up to.
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Thanks. [... it doesn't get rid of the ache in her chest about rupert, but. it's a start.] Lean on each other, and we'll make it through.
For right now, though, I think we earned some rest and a bit of a second to sulk.