[the bar is SO low. she meets his gaze for a moment, and then looks away. she's been really good about not crying tonight, so she's not going to start now.]
He does, actually. Says just as much stupid as fuck shit to balance it out. [...] He changed my whole outlook on things, you know? When I met him.
[ he's glad to just listen, for a little bit. settling in, folding his arm under his head, he closes his eyes. ] I figured you guys were close... you've got matching tats. How'd he do that?
I was a shitty person, before I met the Nein. I'd break things because I could. But Molly - he's an asshole, but he doesn't do that. He doesn't look for ways to tear people down. He makes things better for people, even if it's just a little.
I saw that, and I wanted to do it, too. Instead of being a garbage person, I wanted to try harder, so. I got the tattoo to remind me to keep moving.
it's probably a good thing he looked away. he nods, even if beau can't see it, and tries to talk around the sticky weight of a memory on his chest. of an angry kid in an orphanage.] ...I get that.
[ after a longer pause, ichiro's voice softens. ] ...I think it's working. I mean - I didn't know you before, I guess, but you're not a garbage person. Not even close.
...Sometimes that's all we can really do, is try to be better than our worst. I know it's hard as shit sometimes. So. I think it's something to look up to.
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He does, actually. Says just as much stupid as fuck shit to balance it out. [...] He changed my whole outlook on things, you know? When I met him.
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[ he's glad to just listen, for a little bit. settling in, folding his arm under his head, he closes his eyes. ] I figured you guys were close... you've got matching tats. How'd he do that?
[ change her outlook, anyway. ]
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I was a shitty person, before I met the Nein. I'd break things because I could. But Molly - he's an asshole, but he doesn't do that. He doesn't look for ways to tear people down. He makes things better for people, even if it's just a little.
I saw that, and I wanted to do it, too. Instead of being a garbage person, I wanted to try harder, so. I got the tattoo to remind me to keep moving.
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it's probably a good thing he looked away. he nods, even if beau can't see it, and tries to talk around the sticky weight of a memory on his chest. of an angry kid in an orphanage.] ...I get that.
[ after a longer pause, ichiro's voice softens. ] ...I think it's working. I mean - I didn't know you before, I guess, but you're not a garbage person. Not even close.
...Sometimes that's all we can really do, is try to be better than our worst. I know it's hard as shit sometimes. So. I think it's something to look up to.
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Thanks. [... it doesn't get rid of the ache in her chest about rupert, but. it's a start.] Lean on each other, and we'll make it through.
For right now, though, I think we earned some rest and a bit of a second to sulk.