--no, if you're willingly sharing this, then of course I'm not going to turn away from it. You've been given a pretty difficult load to bear, here, and... I know none of you are exactly aware of my own history, but I'm not a stranger to making difficult decisions. Ones people shouldn't ever have to make.

[the thoughts at that are-- it's complicated. they probably catch how many were lost because of those decisions, in there.]

I'll help however you need me to. But-- are you able to tell me who?