[ be disgruntled! that is fine. he is just going to lean into her the best he can. the you can't fix anything makes his heart ache. ]
...yeah. Not something that can just be fixed. [ thinking back to his conversation earlier - all i ever do is make things worse - makes his frown darken even further, and he shakes his head. ] I dunno if there's a good way to deal with it at all, but it sucks. Like - you wanna do everything in your power to make them see themselves the way you see them.
[ i feel that way about you sometimes, too. beau has been so helpful to him, after all, instrumental in helping ichiro keep his shit together in their time here when it has been rapidly falling out of his hands all over the place. ] Just gotta be supportive in every way we can, you know? And sometimes that just means - giving people space, which sucks even worse. It's hard for me to watch that happen, too.
[she pulls her hand away - not rudely or roughly, just. she's fidgety. this is a lot of vulnerability she can't afford, can't stand most of the time. it's not easy. she picks at her knuckles, leg jittering, bouncing.]
I don't want to give him space. You give him space and he'll fucking run as far as he can and never come back. [can't let him, I know what he wants to do, I won't let him]
[ ooohhh he recognizes this flightiness because he just dealt with it, but, that's okay. he's patient. ichiro folds his hands together and listens. ]
...Well, the good news is it's pretty hard to run that far, here. [ there's only so much space. this is a little wryly, but. in all seriousness: ] This is only temporary, too - the effect thing, at least. I know that sucks, I know that's not what you wanna hear, cause it's still happening, and - even just hearing about it, I wanna go fix it, too.
[ caleb-san has done so much for me - i can't imagine how much he's done for you. ]
...Maybe there's something we can buy that can help give him a break. [ someone get caleb a tinfoil hat ] Till it's over.
I thought about that. I don't think it'll work. [I'm so tired I just want to have one good day] I'll just try to stay out of his range for a while, I guess.
I can ask. Worst thing that happens is they say no, you know?
[ ...
it feels so weird, picking at other people's thoughts so easily, but, he hears that one, and just - sighs, a little, shoulders slumping. some of his usual optimism melts off. ]
[ he frowns, turning to the side to look at her. ]
...if you say it like that, it's gonna be impossible. Cause if you're miserable too, I think I'd rather just be kinda miserable with you than better while you're suffering.
[ stubborn.
but he thinks, I love you way too much to let you just suffer by yourself. I'm not going anywhere. ]
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...yeah. Not something that can just be fixed. [ thinking back to his conversation earlier - all i ever do is make things worse - makes his frown darken even further, and he shakes his head. ] I dunno if there's a good way to deal with it at all, but it sucks. Like - you wanna do everything in your power to make them see themselves the way you see them.
[ i feel that way about you sometimes, too. beau has been so helpful to him, after all, instrumental in helping ichiro keep his shit together in their time here when it has been rapidly falling out of his hands all over the place. ] Just gotta be supportive in every way we can, you know? And sometimes that just means - giving people space, which sucks even worse. It's hard for me to watch that happen, too.
Did you guys argue about it?
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I don't want to give him space. You give him space and he'll fucking run as far as he can and never come back. [can't let him, I know what he wants to do, I won't let him]
... Yeah. We argued. We do that a lot, though.
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...Well, the good news is it's pretty hard to run that far, here. [ there's only so much space. this is a little wryly, but. in all seriousness: ] This is only temporary, too - the effect thing, at least. I know that sucks, I know that's not what you wanna hear, cause it's still happening, and - even just hearing about it, I wanna go fix it, too.
[ caleb-san has done so much for me - i can't imagine how much he's done for you. ]
...Maybe there's something we can buy that can help give him a break. [ someone get caleb a tinfoil hat ] Till it's over.
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I thought about that. I don't think it'll work. [I'm so tired I just want to have one good day] I'll just try to stay out of his range for a while, I guess.
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[ ...
it feels so weird, picking at other people's thoughts so easily, but, he hears that one, and just - sighs, a little, shoulders slumping. some of his usual optimism melts off. ]
...me too. Just one good day, I mean.
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... You will. It'll be alright, Ichiro.
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...if you say it like that, it's gonna be impossible. Cause if you're miserable too, I think I'd rather just be kinda miserable with you than better while you're suffering.
[ stubborn.
but he thinks, I love you way too much to let you just suffer by yourself. I'm not going anywhere. ]