[ oooooh he hates that idea and you can tell pretty much immediately - ichiro's frown darkens a little, brows knitting together. thankfully, kainé being just that unlucky wasn't the case, but he would fight the world deadass if it was. rational? no. does it matter? hell no.
the fucking worst! ichiro reaches out to gently adjust one of the flowers on miku's little grave, and he's not really so angry, today, either. it's hard to be, with the weight of this curse on his shoulders. ]
...at least we didn't accidentally throw Malik under the bus. Even if he was being a dick - he didn't deserve that. [ neither did tsuyukusa but he doesnt need to say that out loud, probably. ]
[ It's a quiet agreement because none of them really deserve to be in this murder school situation. None of them should have been made to kill or die like this—without much choice given to them.
She doesn't care for Malik at all, but she can understand Ichiro's sentiment. She watches him adjust the flowers for a moment. ]
Is the price of the truth worth it, Ichiro? If the truth turns your world upside down.
[ She's thinking of the sense of betrayal she saw as most of the killers were revealed in each trial and the hurt she saw afterwards even as people tried to understand. ]
[ what a heavy question. for someone so justice minded, who hates to lie, who hates bullies, the truth is...
... he's quiet for a second longer, thinking. just before he arrived here, he had a long conversation with his brothers about a similar topic. ichiro found a truth out about his father when he was young that changed the entire dynamic of his family, that had him pull jiro and saburo away. when rei found them again, he attempted to manipulate his brothers into a similar situation, pointing out that ichiro was a liar, who told them both of their parents were dead.
...when jiro and saburo had confronted him about it, he'd said something similar to what he says now. ]
...I think that truth doesn't have any meaning, unless we find it ourselves. So whatever consequences that come from that after are up to us.
[ a pause. he chews on his lip, thoughtful. ichiro just feels for everyone, for all the pain and hurt they've all gone through up to this point - when he speaks, his voice is heavy with emotion, and very honest. ]
...For me, that's... I think we don't have any choice but to keep finding it, because this place took a lot of our choices from us. And I think... at least, I have to think, that finding it is going to maybe make it easier for us to solve this place's largest mysteries as a whole, and stopping it from destroying us any further that it already has.
[ She wonders a little if Ichiro thinks it's better or worse for Kainé to keep quiet about her murder even if she did try to leak whatever information she could about it.
The thing about Kainé is that she unearthed a truth about her world long before Nier and the rest of their small party found out about it, but she kept it quiet because she knew that truth would crush the people she cared about the longer they knew. Not all truths are equal to her, but she doesn't disagree with Ichiro about what the truth means in this place, in this prison of a school. ]
I'm not unused to finding truths that destroy things I thought I knew. [ Her voice is quiet, but it's steady. This is something undeniable about her, how much she can lock away certain feelings even for someone as emotional as she is. ]
We're getting closer, if an asshole voice is coming to talk to people, but it's been hitting everyone hard. [ And she's more than aware that that's just how the world can be. ] I'm not for stopping, and I think we should all keep moving for it.
[ She's only wondering how long the truth of her murder can stay hidden. Or how much it should. ]
he's quiet for a while when she finishes, looking at the little grave in front of him, and then back to kainé. ]
... well - finding out what happened with you didn't destroy anything for me. [ ichiro smiles a little, with that. it's softer than usual, more tired, but it's there. it's the quiet tenacity that stirs something more familiar in him, something more normal. he's starting to realize he probably was cursed as hell, now, at least, and his usual infallibility and warmth is starting to return, though it seems to be slow going.
hearing things like i'm not for stopping are inspiring for ichiro. it's what he needs to hear, too - that the people here are still willing to fight the good fight, no matter what happens. ] But I'm with you. I fought a wolf and won this week, I can handle the fourth wall.
[ She could!! But some things she keeps close to her chest.
Her heart is soft, for as much as it is scarred. It really is terrible, how accepting Ichiro seems to be of her. She's a little scared to get too used to it.
She doesn't know what the fourth wall is exactly, but she can connect some dots from context. Even if he's still cursed here, the sentiment remains the same: ]
We'll break down that wall, too.
[ She says that with absolute ferocious certainty.
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the fucking worst! ichiro reaches out to gently adjust one of the flowers on miku's little grave, and he's not really so angry, today, either. it's hard to be, with the weight of this curse on his shoulders. ]
...at least we didn't accidentally throw Malik under the bus. Even if he was being a dick - he didn't deserve that. [ neither did tsuyukusa but he doesnt need to say that out loud, probably. ]
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[ It's a quiet agreement because none of them really deserve to be in this murder school situation. None of them should have been made to kill or die like this—without much choice given to them.
She doesn't care for Malik at all, but she can understand Ichiro's sentiment. She watches him adjust the flowers for a moment. ]
Is the price of the truth worth it, Ichiro? If the truth turns your world upside down.
[ She's thinking of the sense of betrayal she saw as most of the killers were revealed in each trial and the hurt she saw afterwards even as people tried to understand. ]
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... he's quiet for a second longer, thinking. just before he arrived here, he had a long conversation with his brothers about a similar topic. ichiro found a truth out about his father when he was young that changed the entire dynamic of his family, that had him pull jiro and saburo away. when rei found them again, he attempted to manipulate his brothers into a similar situation, pointing out that ichiro was a liar, who told them both of their parents were dead.
...when jiro and saburo had confronted him about it, he'd said something similar to what he says now. ]
...I think that truth doesn't have any meaning, unless we find it ourselves. So whatever consequences that come from that after are up to us.
[ a pause. he chews on his lip, thoughtful. ichiro just feels for everyone, for all the pain and hurt they've all gone through up to this point - when he speaks, his voice is heavy with emotion, and very honest. ]
...For me, that's... I think we don't have any choice but to keep finding it, because this place took a lot of our choices from us. And I think... at least, I have to think, that finding it is going to maybe make it easier for us to solve this place's largest mysteries as a whole, and stopping it from destroying us any further that it already has.
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The thing about Kainé is that she unearthed a truth about her world long before Nier and the rest of their small party found out about it, but she kept it quiet because she knew that truth would crush the people she cared about the longer they knew. Not all truths are equal to her, but she doesn't disagree with Ichiro about what the truth means in this place, in this prison of a school. ]
I'm not unused to finding truths that destroy things I thought I knew. [ Her voice is quiet, but it's steady. This is something undeniable about her, how much she can lock away certain feelings even for someone as emotional as she is. ]
We're getting closer, if an asshole voice is coming to talk to people, but it's been hitting everyone hard. [ And she's more than aware that that's just how the world can be. ] I'm not for stopping, and I think we should all keep moving for it.
[ She's only wondering how long the truth of her murder can stay hidden. Or how much it should. ]
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he's quiet for a while when she finishes, looking at the little grave in front of him, and then back to kainé. ]
... well - finding out what happened with you didn't destroy anything for me. [ ichiro smiles a little, with that. it's softer than usual, more tired, but it's there. it's the quiet tenacity that stirs something more familiar in him, something more normal. he's starting to realize he probably was cursed as hell, now, at least, and his usual infallibility and warmth is starting to return, though it seems to be slow going.
hearing things like i'm not for stopping are inspiring for ichiro. it's what he needs to hear, too - that the people here are still willing to fight the good fight, no matter what happens. ] But I'm with you. I fought a wolf and won this week, I can handle the fourth wall.
[ okay that's definitely joking. ]
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Her heart is soft, for as much as it is scarred. It really is terrible, how accepting Ichiro seems to be of her. She's a little scared to get too used to it.
She doesn't know what the fourth wall is exactly, but she can connect some dots from context. Even if he's still cursed here, the sentiment remains the same: ]
We'll break down that wall, too.
[ She says that with absolute ferocious certainty.
Wolves and walls, literary or literally. ]