[ this is such a deeply concerning text message andie im going to kill you ]
not so much expecting. i believe in you, that's all.
[ .......
quiet, for a bit. hope will see the ichiro is typing... message as he goes back and forth. ]
I don't know, man. i think it makes all of us stuck in a shitty system. saving our own asses and throwing somebody else to the wolves in the process and that's not good. feels really shitty, actually. but that's the thing, too, is we don't *know* - all that's just throwing noodles at the wall until we find something that sticks we can't know anything until we find somebody who can at least talk about it
back home, i'm stuck in a pretty shitty system, too. people get hurt in it all the time. people die because of it. and there's nothing i want more than to tear the whole god damn thing down and destroy it and fix the world but i can't just do that - i can only really work towards it, and play by their rules right now, until i get to a place where i can destroy it. that's the shittiest part, but it's a path towards making things right.
i guess that's what it feels like here, too. even if it makes me mad, even if i have to vote in this shitty trial, even if we're limited in trying to solve these things, and even if people are stuck doing it maybe that has to be the steps to fixing it because that's the only way we can, right now. i know that answer blows. i hate it. but if i don't do anything - if i throw myself to the wolves instead of trying to fix it, then i'm not helping anybody.
we've gotta try, man. sometimes that's the best that we have.
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not so much expecting. i believe in you, that's all.
[ .......
quiet, for a bit. hope will see the ichiro is typing... message as he goes back and forth. ]
I don't know, man.
i think it makes all of us stuck in a shitty system.
saving our own asses and throwing somebody else to the wolves in the process
and that's not good. feels really shitty, actually.
but that's the thing, too, is we don't *know* - all that's just throwing noodles at the wall until we find something that sticks
we can't know anything until we find somebody who can at least talk about it
back home, i'm stuck in a pretty shitty system, too.
people get hurt in it all the time. people die because of it.
and there's nothing i want more than to tear the whole god damn thing down and destroy it and fix the world
but i can't just do that - i can only really work towards it, and play by their rules right now, until i get to a place where i can destroy it.
that's the shittiest part, but it's a path towards making things right.
i guess that's what it feels like here, too. even if it makes me mad, even if i have to vote in this shitty trial, even if we're limited in trying to solve these things, and even if people are stuck doing it
maybe that has to be the steps to fixing it because that's the only way we can, right now.
i know that answer blows. i hate it.
but if i don't do anything - if i throw myself to the wolves instead of trying to fix it, then i'm not helping anybody.
we've gotta try, man. sometimes that's the best that we have.