Yeah. Fields, mostly. Something fucked up the dugout in the baseball diamond, and we found blood. net to the soccer field was slashed up, too. i've been checkin in with the others too, tryin to get a good idea of what everybody found.
yeah, probably. i always tell my bros if i'm giving them a talking to, its cause i care about them. not cause i want to ruin their lives or make them feel useless or anything. think its probably the same with everybody here.
were you close with either of them? bradley or sieghart-san.
for sure. it sucks. losing people always sucks. the fact that we're still doing it three weeks into this sucks even worse. means we've gotta be on our game tomorrow. esp since you couldn't help us investigate. means we need that big brain of yours. ok?
[ ...he's not sure if he means that jokingly or not. either way, there's a pause before his next message comes in. ]
I've been thinking about that thing you told me the other day, that the killers might not be fully in control of their actions. If that's true, what does that mean for their culpability? And what does that make the rest of us who go along with the voting system?
[ this is such a deeply concerning text message andie im going to kill you ]
not so much expecting. i believe in you, that's all.
[ .......
quiet, for a bit. hope will see the ichiro is typing... message as he goes back and forth. ]
I don't know, man. i think it makes all of us stuck in a shitty system. saving our own asses and throwing somebody else to the wolves in the process and that's not good. feels really shitty, actually. but that's the thing, too, is we don't *know* - all that's just throwing noodles at the wall until we find something that sticks we can't know anything until we find somebody who can at least talk about it
back home, i'm stuck in a pretty shitty system, too. people get hurt in it all the time. people die because of it. and there's nothing i want more than to tear the whole god damn thing down and destroy it and fix the world but i can't just do that - i can only really work towards it, and play by their rules right now, until i get to a place where i can destroy it. that's the shittiest part, but it's a path towards making things right.
i guess that's what it feels like here, too. even if it makes me mad, even if i have to vote in this shitty trial, even if we're limited in trying to solve these things, and even if people are stuck doing it maybe that has to be the steps to fixing it because that's the only way we can, right now. i know that answer blows. i hate it. but if i don't do anything - if i throw myself to the wolves instead of trying to fix it, then i'm not helping anybody.
we've gotta try, man. sometimes that's the best that we have.
[ STOP HE JUST HAS REALLY SHITTY SELF-ESTEEM THAT'S WHY THIS IS HIS USERNAME DON'T READ TOO MUCH INTO IT
there's a considerable lapse from the moment ✔ read x:xx am shows up at the bottom of ichiro's texts before hope sends back: ]
It's like I was told before... It's not a question of can or can't. There are just some things in life you just do.
[ that phrase of hope's acquaintance comes up again like an inspirational quote image on your aunt's facebook wall... from here, the typing bubble shows up, indicating he's probably sending the rest of this out as the words come to his mind rather than thinking too hard about them. ]
You know, I can't help but think it's not a coincidence that a lot of us are in that same boat. I mean, that's apparently why we all "applied" here, right? Because there's something we really want, that we would do almost anything to get, and this place allegedly has the means to make that happen.
Because I'm from somewhere with a shitty system too, and I know we're not alone in that. I don't know exactly what it has to do with this...deathmatch reality show stuff, or whatever's going on here, but Could all of this just be some trial or test of resolve to show how much we think we deserve it?
[ . . . ]
Ugh Sorry I think I'm thinking too hard about this.
it's okay, you don't have to apologize. i mean, maybe. it might be. if this place was the same as chuuoku, then, yeah, that'd make sense. that's what they basically have us do all the time.
nothing's gonna feel better than giving this place a giant middle finger when we get the chance to break it, huh. some things you just do - yeah. it sucks, but it's true. what rly matters is how you handle em, i think. how that helps you and the world get a little better even if it's a long journey.
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( week 2 ) friday
Were you able to check anything out today?
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Something fucked up the dugout in the baseball diamond, and we found blood. net to the soccer field was slashed up, too.
i've been checkin in with the others too, tryin to get a good idea of what everybody found.
how're you doing?
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Frumpkin and Kissa make for some pretty good company when no one else is around.
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i always tell my bros if i'm giving them a talking to, its cause i care about them.
not cause i want to ruin their lives or make them feel useless or anything.
think its probably the same with everybody here.
were you close with either of them? bradley or sieghart-san.
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it sucks. losing people always sucks. the fact that we're still doing it three weeks into this sucks even worse.
means we've gotta be on our game tomorrow. esp since you couldn't help us investigate.
means we need that big brain of yours. ok?
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[ ...he's not sure if he means that jokingly or not. either way, there's a pause before his next message comes in. ]
I've been thinking about that thing you told me the other day, that the killers might not be fully in control of their actions.
If that's true, what does that mean for their culpability?
And what does that make the rest of us who go along with the voting system?
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not so much expecting. i believe in you, that's all.
[ .......
quiet, for a bit. hope will see the ichiro is typing... message as he goes back and forth. ]
I don't know, man.
i think it makes all of us stuck in a shitty system.
saving our own asses and throwing somebody else to the wolves in the process
and that's not good. feels really shitty, actually.
but that's the thing, too, is we don't *know* - all that's just throwing noodles at the wall until we find something that sticks
we can't know anything until we find somebody who can at least talk about it
back home, i'm stuck in a pretty shitty system, too.
people get hurt in it all the time. people die because of it.
and there's nothing i want more than to tear the whole god damn thing down and destroy it and fix the world
but i can't just do that - i can only really work towards it, and play by their rules right now, until i get to a place where i can destroy it.
that's the shittiest part, but it's a path towards making things right.
i guess that's what it feels like here, too. even if it makes me mad, even if i have to vote in this shitty trial, even if we're limited in trying to solve these things, and even if people are stuck doing it
maybe that has to be the steps to fixing it because that's the only way we can, right now.
i know that answer blows. i hate it.
but if i don't do anything - if i throw myself to the wolves instead of trying to fix it, then i'm not helping anybody.
we've gotta try, man. sometimes that's the best that we have.
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there's a considerable lapse from the moment ✔ read x:xx am shows up at the bottom of ichiro's texts before hope sends back: ]
It's like I was told before...
It's not a question of can or can't.
There are just some things in life you just do.
[ that phrase of hope's acquaintance comes up again like an inspirational quote image on your aunt's facebook wall... from here, the typing bubble shows up, indicating he's probably sending the rest of this out as the words come to his mind rather than thinking too hard about them. ]
You know, I can't help but think it's not a coincidence that a lot of us are in that same boat.
I mean, that's apparently why we all "applied" here, right?
Because there's something we really want, that we would do almost anything to get, and this place allegedly has the means to make that happen.
Because
I'm from somewhere with a shitty system too, and I know we're not alone in that.
I don't know exactly what it has to do with this...deathmatch reality show stuff, or whatever's going on here, but
Could all of this just be some trial or test of resolve to show how much we think we deserve it?
[ . . . ]
Ugh
Sorry
I think I'm thinking too hard about this.
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it's okay, you don't have to apologize.
i mean, maybe.
it might be.
if this place was the same as chuuoku, then, yeah, that'd make sense.
that's what they basically have us do all the time.
nothing's gonna feel better than giving this place a giant middle finger when we get the chance to break it, huh.
some things you just do - yeah. it sucks, but it's true.
what rly matters is how you handle em, i think. how that helps you and the world get a little better even if it's a long journey.
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It still doesn't feel right to punish someone who was forced into doing something as awful as killing another person.
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what's the alternative? we throw someone who didn't do anything into that expulsion thing
and that includes ourselves