its hope, so he at least. stops. he doesn't turn around to look at him, just clenches his fist tight at his side. the word comes out sharper than he intends it to - ]
- What? [ and then, he immediately just thinks - Sorry. I'm sorry. ]
...I'm sorry. About last night. I had no idea what you were going through... and I'm sorry for being selfish. I should have at least replied to you. I should have...
[ well... it's hope, so, at least he doesn't just clam up like he has around basically everybody else. some of that tight, miserable tension loosens, a little bit. ]
... it's okay. I didn't - I didn't let you come see me because I didn't want to put you in danger.
[ I didn't want to accidentally tell you everything. ] It isn't your fault.
[ ...he'll let go of ichiro for now, but only so that he can come around and talk with him face-to-face. ]
...I feel kind of stupid for it now, but...the whole reason I wanted to come see you was because...I was one of the people who voted for Denji. I thought I played a part in sending him to his death. And it's not even because I thought he actually did anything– it's just because I didn't like him, and I didn't want to vote for Maya. But now, knowing everything you guys told us...
[ it probably doesn't help. but, ichiro does look at him when he comes around - his expression is a little tight, like he's just trying to hold it together. ] About Denji.
... we knew some things. I did know about Sakyou, don't get me wrong. I agreed to join them when they gave me their story.
[ his expression hardens, a little, there. angry at himself, mostly. I didn't want them to bear the burden alone, but that was what they chose to do, anyway. ]
But I don't know why they brought us in at all, when all they did was lie to us, too.
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its hope, so he at least. stops. he doesn't turn around to look at him, just clenches his fist tight at his side. the word comes out sharper than he intends it to - ]
- What? [ and then, he immediately just thinks - Sorry. I'm sorry. ]
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he just steps forward and hugs him from behind, resting his forehead against his back. ]
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he just sort of holds still, but hope will notice very quickly that ichiro is trembling. ]
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(What the hell do I say? What CAN I say?)
...I'm sorry. About last night. I had no idea what you were going through... and I'm sorry for being selfish. I should have at least replied to you. I should have...
(...done a lot of things.)
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... it's okay. I didn't - I didn't let you come see me because I didn't want to put you in danger.
[ I didn't want to accidentally tell you everything. ] It isn't your fault.
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...I feel kind of stupid for it now, but...the whole reason I wanted to come see you was because...I was one of the people who voted for Denji. I thought I played a part in sending him to his death. And it's not even because I thought he actually did anything– it's just because I didn't like him, and I didn't want to vote for Maya. But now, knowing everything you guys told us...
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I didn't know, either.
[ it probably doesn't help. but, ichiro does look at him when he comes around - his expression is a little tight, like he's just trying to hold it together. ] About Denji.
[ They never told me anything. ]
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Because of what Miss Lucretia said about you and her just being dragged in without any explanation?
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[ his expression hardens, a little, there. angry at himself, mostly. I didn't want them to bear the burden alone, but that was what they chose to do, anyway. ]
But I don't know why they brought us in at all, when all they did was lie to us, too.